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so a nearby college was hosting a fashion show..&& of course i had to model for them. I did it last year too it was one of my first shows ever to do. I have a couple pictures up from it. I'll post some pics from last  years show && this years. I haven't gotten a email notifying me about the pictures taken at this years show but i will post them once i get them.

&& after the show. a little tired. but i was so excited that my older brother came i had to take a pic!!

&& these are the only pics i have from this years show so far..

&& after..

..yes i was tired..lol

..Rip the runwaY..

these pics are from a fashion show i did last year..my last show before having my baby..i was actually 5 weeks pregnant..but i didn't know it..thats probably why i looked soo sick..lol..but i just came across these pics && wanted to post them!!

..Eye Candy Fashion Show..

I had much fun!! I dont have my own camera soo i couldnt take as many pics as i would have liked..but here are a few taken from my model friend 

=)

..Why mE??..

So as u can see i deleted the pic of me && anonymous..but he is really confusin me..soo he says that this girl who keeps writng on his facebook ((ugh i hate internet drama)) is just some girl he use to talk to && he doesn't wana be with her but she won't leave him alone..we'll i dont believe it anymore..she writng stuff like i miss u!! && im sorry about yesterday..sooo ya'll are seeing each other now??
i thought she was just some girl..??
I do not need to go throughthis..why is it so hard for me to move on??
is it because he is my daughters father??

We'll im not gona keep stressin about it.. && i said that so many times but im serious now..i only have one life && who knows how long that is..soo i wanna live it up to the fullest..i dont need to hold on to someone who isnt't keepin it real wit me..

But anyway..sorry i havent posted this weekend.. I was at work all day both sunday & saturday!!

But today im at my cousin house!! were about to go to the pool..im not getting in tho because Nasia doesnt have swimming diapers..but im going to go over && chill with them..

((my hair looks crazy))

..Feeling alonE..

Another day..Another blog..

So im gonna miss out on the party of my life!! My sister in law is having a big bday bash party && I cant go .. =( .. of course I was invited..but I have no transportation..I haven’t been out SINCE I had my baby..4 months in the house..@ school..&& working..but no fun..okay the closest I got to having fun was participating in a fashion show!! But that is more like work to me..i want to get dressed up && party!! No limitations!! ..it really sucks being a single mother with no car..&& a job that is so stingy with hours..

IF ANYONE OUT THERE IS SELLING OR KNOWS ABOUT A CAR PLEASE LET ME KNOW!! I feel my self getting desperate for some sort of fun in my life.. Me && Nasi’a father are not on bad terms..we just have a lot of straightening up in life we need to do separately because if not it will definitely ruin our relationship..but our distance during this time is really getting to me..&& I feel like I am && will always be a single mother..I am very independent && I can do good all by myself..but I want someone by my side to love!! && that loves me..i  feel so alone sometimes..but he is the only one I want..&& I cant explain it..i just love him.. Our love story is something that happens rarely..let me think if I want to go in detail with it..only if you request it.but I’ll leave that out for right now..

I’m pretty sure he doesn’t know I have a blog =) So I’ll post a picture ((only pic we have together))

We’ll im going to finish my day off by cleaning my room ((yay!! =[ )) && maybe hooking up with my cousin && taking a few pics!! She’s into photography..but sometimes im just lazy..soo we rarely take pics..my energy was taken after having my baby..lol

Don’t forget to vote on my poll ((to your right)) && let me know what you want to read about!! Thanks for checking out my blog && following me..as always TTYS!! =)

PS..Nasia picked her head up today!! She's so close to sitting up && crawling!! I cant wait until she gets it..well i can wait..i dont wanna rush time!! =)

..Wanna take pics like thesE..

My goal is to hook up with a photographer soon && replicate one of these styles of pics!! I will post up my pic && the inspiration as soon as i complete this task!!

Off to bed now..TTYS!! =)

Nasia's Day

Today I decided to take a walk to chick-fil-a with my daughter..it was fund raiser night for my little brothers school..plus Nasia was very irritable in the house so I had to take her out..

I decided to wear my little forever21 flower print dress with bronze sandals..It was nice to get out of the house..&& I loovveedd chick-fil-a’s strawberry shake!! =)

Me && Nasia took a pic together so you could see my dress =) ..she didn’t want to let go so I kept her in the pic..I cant really blog like I want to today because im home alone && my little Nasia is not liking me on the computer..so I’ll just post some pics up from out day at chick-fil-a!! =)

 

p.s. Guess what i just got in the mail?!?! No its not something to be excited about..I just recieved a notice from the hospital saying that my insurance did not cover the whole bill for when i had my baby!! They want me to pay an outstanding amount of money or i will be in debt && ruin my credit!! I can not believe they really could do something like that..i thought my insurance was suppose to pay it all..i have to pay so much $$ out my pocket to have a baby plus more $$ to care for her..this is unbelievable..

Hot Summer Day

I have decided to stay in today..
I took a walk to the store early this morning (( only because i was awoken by Nasia ))
Thats my little bundle of joy..yup!! My 4 month daughter!!
She's actually turning 4 months on June 4th...Can't wait!!
Im going to celebrate each month until she turns one, then the traditional year birthday celebration will begin..

I still haven't commited to my health plan and work out since having my baby..&& my tummy is catching up to me..as a model, i need to keep a flat tummy..but its sooo hardd!! I eat waffles every morning..lol ima fat kid. But they look soo good..

noo thats not my actual plate.. i ate mines to quickly to take a picture of it..but they looked exactly like these...minus the strawberries =)

Soo whats on my agenda for the day??!! Im actually planning on spending my whole day with my daughter!! Im always going somewhere && i no it exhausts her to go in && out the house.. So sorry to say but today is an inside day..&& its soo beautiful outside..but i dont have a car right now && im off from work soo i think we will just relax on our back porch..

I gained more chic points on chictopia!! I was soo excited because i am pretty much just starting it && i want to be part of the community..&& that only happens if you gain 200 chic points && im at 120. so Im amost there!! =) if you'd like to help pleeaassee do soo by clicking on the link that says Chictopia ((to your right)) and becoming a fan && commenting my pics..

My Youtube isn't up to date..so far its just recordings of when i was pregnant..if you can handle watching it..i recorded my baby in my tummy..lol..i was sooo fascinated i just had to!! My camera dropped and cracked at a recent fashion show soo i havent been able to record and take pics like i want to..but im working on getting a new one and will update my youtube as soon as i do!! && ofrcourse i will let you guys know when my youtube is up to date..but if you want to watch what i already have..jus click the link to your right..

Well as my first blog post I just really wanted to introduce myself to you guys!! There will be more to come && im sure you will love it!! I'll post a pic of my daughter Nasia and I!! TTYS..